Being brought back to THAT point

“The voice is Jacob’s voice, but the hands are the hands of Esau.”  And he did not recognise him, because his hands were hairy like his brother Esau’s hands.  So he blessed him.  He said, “Are you really my son Esau?”  He answered, “I am.”….. 

Jacob was left alone.  And a man wrestled with him until the breaking of the day…..  But Jacob said, “I will not let you go unless you bless me.”  And He said to him, “What is your name?”  And he said, “Jacob.”  Genesis 27:22-25, 32:24-27


Then [Peter] began to invoke a curse on himself and to swear, “I do not know the man.”  And immediately the rooster crowd.  And Peter remembered the saying of Jesus, “Before the rooster crows, you will deny me three times.”  And he went out and wept bitterly.”…..

[Jesus] said to him the third time, “Simon, son of John, do you love Me?”  Peter was grieved because He said to him the third time, “Do you love me?”….    Matthew 26:74,75 and Mark 21:17


My thoughts are not particularily cohesive – but Ravi in the book “Can Man Live Without God?” brought up the first instance, which put me in mind of the second.  Both instances involve grievous sins – Jacob, stealing the blessing of his brother, from his blind father.  And Peter, who denies his Lord three times before he realises what he has done.  I do not get the impression Jacob felt too badly.  Peter was clearly distraught at his own sin.

How like us – sometimes premeditated, like Jacob.  Sometimes repeated, like Peter.  Thrice he denies Christ….  And yet, look how God chooses to respond.  Days later, or perhaps years later – God brings them, us, back to that breaking point.  He calls Peter over, and bears to his mind the three times he denied Christ, by asking three times if Peter loved him.  Peter is crushed.  God does not always coddle us, to teach us.  And Jacob, in the remainder of the text, seems to understand that it is God he wrestled – because He does nothing more than ask Jacob his name when he asks Him to bless him….  Did not his father Isaac do the same?  Is God not recalling to his mind the last time he was asked the same question?  Jacob leaves that place a new man.  With a new, God-given name. 

I am uncertain of the application.  I think so often we stuff the darkness in our hearts deep down.  I think perhaps though, God treats it like a serpent’s venom – He draws it up to the surface – it’s painful, and yet the remembering of our sinfulness, our weakness, our failings is where we can find healing.  The raw reminder of our betrayals – for sin is just that – a betrayal against our Lord, our Husband, our King – is necessary.  Jacob could not become Isreal without first dealing with his betrayal.  Peter could not become the rock the church was built on, without first dealing with his denial.  Let us not fear dealing with our own sins, even long done deeds, in order to become the children of God we were called to be.


1 Comment (+add yours?)

  1. Debbie
    Sep 11, 2008 @ 08:14:06

    I am so glad to have come across your blog. I am looking forward to reading and learning from your thoughts. Thank you for your transparency.


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